I've been feeling Ok. Definitely better than when I was alone in Oakland. I'm not overly anxious or panicky... no out of body experiences or trips, due to stress... the neighborhood out here is so nice I haven't really changed my habits. I even still leave the door open to allow some cross breeze action, though I close and lock the door door earlier than usual.
I am feeling more creative and driven though. Trying to decide if I want to purchase an easel or just try to ghetto-rig a surface on which to paint... have already had several images/emotions I'd like to get down on canvas. Ironically, missing my guy, the images are all of former lovers. I'm not sure what any of this means but I'm thinking of just going with it and painting.
My guy and I talk daily. He's ok, if not a bit overwhelmed by family. I'm so glad I'm not there, but rather I'm here creating a stable home base he can return to. Well I'm hoping to accomplish that, hopefully starting by securing steady work.
My cousin prepped me for the job with her. I know exactly what to say. Now all I have to do is buy some stockings and skirts. Oh yes, she told me no more jeans to work... So I'm going to give it a try.
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