Thinking about family. Thinking about family in Texas and family down the street.
Thinking about positivity among family members...
Examining an interesting emotion I have towards the family members in Texas. It's hard for me to look at it.
I have no ill will or thoughts towards any of my siblings. But just as in reality, I cannot control their feelings towards me. I get strange vibes from the 2 sisters in Texas and even more strange feelings from the little sister in San Diego.
The San Diegan sister has an excuse, she is 12. She's awkward as all hell and although I am shocked by the weird things she says to me, she's 12. I respond kindly but firmly and it's over.
The sisters in Texas are another matter. The younger one is quite rough around the edges. A seemingly territorial vibe is what I get from her. She's not rude or rough towards me like the 12 year old, but she can be dismissive, apathetic, distracted I suppose. I miss her and try to think of ways to be in touch with her.
The older of the two in Texas is a bit more difficult to understand. The only reason I can imagine she is a bit distracted is because she actually is. She's got a ton of things going on. Again I just wrack my brain trying to think of ways to stay in touch.
With the girls in Texas it's clear we will not live near each other anytime soon. Time spent together will be vacation time, downtime, not day to day times. It makes me sad but its just how it is. All I can try to do is be in touch. I like text messaging but they don't airways reply. There's no ill feelings but I suppose everyone is just busy with their own lives.
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