Per request of a Chinese-American good friend of mine, I've been researching 2013's year of the water snake. There are tons of good websites out there that can detail the year for each chinese animal sign as well as overall year expectations. I'll not go into the sites in this post.
Reading up on this year I've learned that it should be pretty good for my sign the Ox. Predictions are that I will experience an intense move for the better (I did) and experience better career opportunities (idk about that so far but I'm staying optimistic).
One aspect of the year of the snake has to do with sudden changes and death. There have been many deaths and in this year it is said to be prepared for deaths within families. These deaths lead to personal reflection of the surviving family members and hopefully positive mental growth. My guy's dad is on his last legs. There have been some "celebrity" deaths already, and I just learned one of my "uncles" ( I believe he's probably more a '2nd uncle' (grandma's sister's husband)) passed away this morning.
I remember him from my pre-teen years. I never really saw him after the age of 10. He always wore those trucker hats with the breathable mesh back. He smelled ok, kind of musty but not totally unpleasant. As far as I can recall, he was a carpenter (he built a small room at the back of his house for one of his daughters after she had her child). He used to shove his dentures out at us and make us laugh. Later I remember hearing from someone that he was probably a molester, but I never experienced that with him. Still though, once I heard that, I remember not really giving him another thought until this morning when I heard he had passed.
I feel quite insensitive over this whole event. I obviously was not close to him. I'm not really close to that side of my family in general. Once I'm working steadily and dont have to worry how the bills will be paid, I hope to visit with them sometime. Still, my reaction is not one of complete depression and utter fear of mortality, or anything like that. I'm basically nonplussed. I feel like a real asshole putting this out there, but it's what I feel. He is the grandfather of some of my cousins and was married to my nana's sister for what seemed like forever. Clearly he was some kind of loved and good person.
Oh well. I'm an asshole I guess. RIP.
Hey, don't feel like an ass. you write 'for real' and beautifully. That and your spirit are what I really love about you; so glad we met up on here!
ReplyDeleteThis is too funny; you are year of the ox?! I've found myself suddenly to have hit it off with a guy who is the same!!
He and I are alike in some respects; we'll see what happens..
I'm gonna look up what this year is going to mean for me per what you've suggested. Thanks for that as I likely wouldn't have thought of that on my own. Hope things get better for you soon...