I've been trying to figure out how to let go of my ex for a long time. I was trying before he found his new girl, trying while they courted and trying now that they are married. Finally I had a dream last night that helped put me in a real good mental place.
First my brain established my current guy as my guy (sex). Then my ex popped into the storyline, his mom was babysitting the neighbor's baby girl. So my ex was right there, watching TV in the living room in that calm way I've seen him do a million times, legs all folded up in front of him. I saw him but didn't say anything. In my dream I was a bit more on the grimy side, which was pretty much the role I played in the relationship since he is a Leo/Virgo and always looks impeccable even when he doesn't.
He faced me and asked me what I thought about his marriage. I told him I'm happy if he's happy. I asked him if he was happy. He said yes but was getting teary-eyed. I said "just a bit emotional though?" and he nodded. In the dream it was pretty unspoken that we both have a bit of a bleeding heart for the past. Being able to talk to him felt really nice, and I kinda wish things had ended on a bit more of a positive note so that it could be done in real life too.
But I am happy I got to have the dream. At that point the dream veered off into some crime scene investigation situation and I went to go get my guy so my ex could meet him. Not sure why that was my goal, but my ex was into it. But the dream took weird plot twists and I had to get up n go to the bathroom so it ended. But I just felt so damn nice having talked to my ex. Calm and resolute. I was really happy!
At that point Lucky started mewing for attention so I got back into bed and let him snuggle on my chest. Finally my brain did something to calm me down instead of stress me. Very nice dream.
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