I wonder, is it bad that I don't want to live near his father and help take care of him in his last months? I was able to get through the last 2 weeks fine, but the family are all as slow moving as my guy and even more stubborn and its really maddening.
The lady is very sweet though. I felt a kinship with her. The man and brother are very stubborn and I have no idea what they're trying to do half the time. I get the feeling they don't either.
But do any of us? I blew off this feeling by giving them all the excuse of being depressed by the looming death of the patriarch of their family. That excuse allowed me to assume a responsible stance and attempt to do the right things... Cleaning up the house for the lady, accompanying the man on excursions out of the house...
In a nutshell, I believe my guy should be there for his family but I don't want to be left without him in the bay area. This is why I'm considering going back with my family in socal. That way if he wants to leave, I will be around people I know and trust. People that remind me exactly who I am and have always been.
Because I am going through my own business, albeit internal. And I need to be strong myself before I can think of helping anyone else, let alone an entire family!
I'll treat myself and my guy nicely. Everyone else, I'm sorry to say, will just have to wait.
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