Alright... Where am I right now...?
Almost halfway through Arizona, my restless nature has been appeased these past 2 weeks. But now I must return to reality. Back to work, back to the apartment in Oakland... Back to all of it.
After spending some time in New Mexico I've decided I really don't think I'd like to live there. It's a great place to visit and de-stress... A part of me thinks moving there would be great for my nerves, but another part of me thinks it would possibly slow me down a little more than I'm ready to accept at this point in time. It would be a HUGE lifestyle change.
I've always been very reckless and daring. Adventurous and that. But since I've taken alcohol out of the equation for an extended period of time, all my priorities have changed. My perspective on life has changed dramatically.
I've found new levels of empathy within myself that I didn't know existed... My problem with self esteem and self worth has slapped me right in the face and demanded attention and immediate work be put in. Hopefully as each day passes, my efforts to love myself will add up.
And after everything is said and done... I'm literally taking it one day at a time.
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