Aside from some random uncomfortable anxious moments, things have been better. Still not where I want to be but am stable.
Job and living situation are stable. I've been actually going out and socializing which is nice and definitely necessary. By that I mean going out for meals, striking up conversation with people and following through with social plans. To be honest it just makes me want to go out more often!
But I've been staying away from alcohol so that changes my game plan a lot. I don't quite know what to do if I'm 'going out' but not drinking. I'm just trying to keep an open mind.
Living in the ghetto is still annoying as ever but after reading about the mass shooting at the elementary school in Connecticut and other places in the US I'm a bit grateful. I may live under constant stress and paranoia but at least nothing happens. Theres no real fear of badly socialized people with mental problems because pretty much everyone that lives in this town can qualify under those terms. People act like animals all the time here. It's nothing new or special.
Hell, anyone can be a mental case. It doesn't matter if they're rich, poor, whatever ethnicity...
I'm still looking forward to moving to a less violent/unloved/uncared for city but it's going to take awhile. I'm going to have to pull a fast one to even get the departure date moved up 2 weeks! It feels so silly but that's how it is for now. All I can do is try to make the best of it and get as much money as possible...
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