As an adult, when is it time to stop being completely honest with family members?
I'd like to be honest and frank with my feelings to my grandmother, in regards to her daughter, my aunt. I will be spending time with grandma this weekend and I know she's going to ask me, and I know what I'd like to say. I'd like to say what I really feel, which is all kinds of negativity.
But what purpose does that serve? Is it better just to swallow these feelings, or tell them to someone else like a boyfriend or sister? My grandmother probably already suspects all of this. She seems sad, defeated, when talking to me about her own child. I've just never seen the lovely daughter up close and personal for quite some time.
Anyway when she asked me over the phone a couple days ago, I just kept it light and casual. I did not go overboard and say it was so great, just said it was fine, and I changed the subject as quickly as I could.
But in person...I really feel inclined to mull over this. I can learn a lot about how not to be. And I am a talker when around people I know I can speak openly with. So should I converse on this topic with my grandmother or not!? My head says don't do it. It's not worth it. She knows her daughter is a piece of shit and more than that, why would I want to spend my time with my grandmother talking about a complete asshole?
I don't want to do that. I'd rather soothe my grandma's questions about my life with calming answers. When she asks me about work I'd rather tell her how I have so many opportunities lined up.
It's just not worth spending our time together talking about another person, whether I'm learning life lessons from them or not.
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