Everywhere I go and look and everyone I care to ponder their influence on my life has brought me to one concept: I've got to always remember to put myself and the things that will benefit me, first. This does not mean I should disregard the needs or well-being of others. It actually means that in order for me to give my best to others, I've got to first BE my best. It is not the obnoxious kind of selfishness that I really hate, it is a crucially beautiful selfishness. The kind that leads to a justified good person.
I get so offended when I feel disregarded by others in the slightest. This is not necessary, and in fact is self inflicted harm. Interacting with family, I noticed that jealousy has been surfacing. Jealousy and resentment. Then I start to talk bad to myself and the next thing I know, I'm spiraling down again.
But this is not necessary. Actually this type of thinking is keeping me stagnant and down. I should be happy about people, especially family, doing well for themselves. If I have a problem with myself, I am the only person who can change it.
And this brings me back full circle. Detaching myself from other people. Stopping all care of what others 'may think.' What others think does not matter. Sure, what my boss thinks matters - I'm not suggesting or condoning losing a job from this type of thinking. This is about self identification. This type of thinking is positive and self empowering.
What is important to me? How has that changed over the years? How has that not changed? What has remained steadfast at my side over these tumultuous years? What are goals that I can set with regard to these obviously important things?
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