Since I've been back in SD I've been more social, more active... Spent quality time with my sister and her son... Avoided the bullshit unnecessary drama that certain members of my family live for...
I've felt safe and comfortable. Nervous and frustrated over the job search, freaked out over lack of money... But one thing I truly can say is that as long as I have good people to pass the time with, money takes a backseat on my attention list.
I've had meals with my grandparents that I couldn't ask for time better spent. I've missed my guy since he's been gone the last month. I've worried about the status of our relationship but luckily I am ok with not being priority number one when there are more pressing matters at hand.
I've busted my foot and been lent a cane by a good friend. I've felt safe in my own house. I've made contact with an old schoolmate that showed me how to respect myself even though I haven't gone off and made millions of dollars since high school, and that it's important to keep my own interests.
I've had confidence in myself to envision myself doing things I never thought possible before. Certain types of jobs... Lifestyles... All different and positive.
I've been growing here. Growing in very good ways. I am regaining my natural confidence and my spirit has been lifting... It's been a very good experience... And once work solidifies, it will only get better.
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