I am really getting tired of talking about my family drama. Spent like an hour on the phone with my guy, 'updating' him. He kept asking me questions... He genuinely cares about my siblings and wants to know what's going on. But it took up so much time! What's the point taking up precious time with that kind of thinking and talking?
I always wanted to be the strong savior in my family. Always wanted to be the badass oldest sister that all the kids could look up to. I've probably inspired my siblings in various ways. But now I feel I've got to switch it up a bit. It can't be about money because I don't have that. It will have to continue being mental and emotional support. Just 'being there.' That's what its going to have to be. Hopefully it's effective and helpful.
There's only so much chaotic drama I can take before I decide to bow out. I can't do that with family so like I said, will have to find a way to switch it up and retain myself at the same time.
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